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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jun 7, 2020 20:21:08 GMT -6
Maybe I need to stay off social media or something. I'm leaning toward that too. It's amazing, just amazing how many scummy, low-life, arrogant sheeple there apparently are on planet earth. All utterly lacking self-awareness. All incredibly narcissistic. I can't understand how God holds back from annihilating this planet.
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Post by avjr on Jun 7, 2020 20:46:57 GMT -6
Maybe I need to stay off social media or something. I'm leaning toward that too. It's amazing, just amazing how many scummy, low-life, arrogant sheeple there apparently are on planet earth. All utterly lacking self-awareness. All incredibly narcissistic. I can't understand how God holds back from annihilating this planet. I asked myself those type of questions too. Why God hasn't kill me after all the mess I'd done?
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Post by Bartimaeus on Jun 8, 2020 9:25:29 GMT -6
I'm leaning toward that too. It's amazing, just amazing how many scummy, low-life, arrogant sheeple there apparently are on planet earth. All utterly lacking self-awareness. All incredibly narcissistic. I can't understand how God holds back from annihilating this planet. I asked myself those type of questions too. Why God hasn't kill me after all the mess I'd done? Because of Jesus, bro. God's patience is meant to draw us to repentance. Praying.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jun 8, 2020 9:42:54 GMT -6
Why God hasn't kill me after all the mess I'd done? While it is important to remember the severity/seriousness of sin -- that our sins are serious enough in God's eyes, to condemn us according to His judgment -- I maintain that you're too hard on yourself. We're forgiven. God always prefers mercy over punishment. God looks at all of us and sees "sinners". But if God didn't look at you and also see someone whom He dearly loved and cared about, you wouldn't be here right now.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Jun 8, 2020 17:12:52 GMT -6
Maybe I need to stay off social media or something. Maybe I need to step away social media too. I used to frequent r/Christianity for discussion and reading, related to of course, Christianity. Sadly, with the riots, this sub has been raided by pathological Trump haters and its now poisoned territory. I fully respect if folks disagree with Trump policies. Even if they're Orange Man Bad deranged.... but to insinuate that anyone else who doesn't hate Trump, defaults to being a racist authoritarian fascist, crosses the line for me.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 8, 2020 20:08:17 GMT -6
I fully respect if folks disagree with Trump policies. Even if they're Orange Man Bad deranged.... but to insinuate that anyone else who doesn't hate Trump, defaults to being a racist authoritarian fascist, crosses the line for me. This. This is what is bringing me to a nervous breakdown. Aside from my day job (maintenance), my two main vocations or career paths or what have you are music (especially the local/DIY scene) and philosophy. Both are broadly liberal, which is fine with me. Both have a loud minority of hateful left-wing people who will despise me and disown if they find out that I'm "conservative." I've pretty much given up on making it in the local scene because of these people. They're posting stuff like "unfriend me if you don't support the looting," "if you like punk and metal but don't support the looting you're a poser," cheering when cops are killed, etc. Politics for these people is an excuse to vent their sick revenge fantasies about getting even with the people who bullied them in high school. Similar stuff happening in academia, minus some of the posturing of the music crowd. I get that the anarchist/peace punk/social outcast crowd has always been extreme, but now the normie liberals are going along with it. I'm simultaneously ready to throw it all away and paranoid about people snitching on me on social media. I'm afraid that the friends...well, close acquaintances that I've made will abandon me, and I'll be stuck with my family and no one else. I had a nervous breakdown today. I'm calling a counselor tomorrow. I can't deal with it any more. Keep in mind--I have many beliefs that are liberal. I'm in favor of serious police reform--can't be pro-cop after watching 50 videos of police brutality. I'm in favor of lots of welfare programs (a social "safety net"). I'm almost a pacifist. I'm extremely worried about climate change. I don't think President Trump has been at all a good president. I'm generally in favor of legalizing same-sex marriage. In some contexts, I would be considered "too liberal." But none of this is good enough for the sociopathic woke revenge-seekers. Sorry for the rant. Difficult day for me.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 8, 2020 20:08:58 GMT -6
While it is important to remember the severity/seriousness of sin -- that our sins are serious enough in God's eyes, to condemn us according to His judgment -- I maintain that you're too hard on yourself. We're forgiven. God always prefers mercy over punishment. God looks at all of us and sees "sinners". But if God didn't look at you and also see someone whom He dearly loved and cared about, you wouldn't be here right now. I second Nocturnal here.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Jun 9, 2020 12:47:41 GMT -6
Politics for these people is an excuse to vent their sick revenge fantasies about getting even Nailed it. Its extremism in bloom. Its no coincidence I used the term "racist authoritarian fascist" in my prior post. I had that exact term thrown against me and folks like me on Reddit on the Christianity sub. Along with the statement we should move to Russia or China with the other racist authoritarian fascists because "that's where we belong". Interesting how a free country negates having a different opinion, and being namecalled. Part of me doubts they know what a fascist really is. I'm certainly not fascist or racist. I tried asking more questions about the plan to round us up and ship us out, but its clear to me, this is just woke redditnerd temper tantrums conveying their wishlist. I've encountered feminists that advocate for women's rights, and that's it. Well, if that was really it, I would be a feminist because I too believe in equal rights for women. ...but unfortunately, there's a generous chunk of feminists that believe men shouldn't have rights, or women should have more rights. (like reverse-sexism instead of equality) Women getting sexually assaulted and harassed, that's terrible and should never happen. ...but there's a generous chunk of those folks too that are in the "believe all women" camp, where accusation is the same thing as found guilty. That's a revenge seeker's silver platter right there. I also believe in police reform. What, I think its 1500 hours of school/training for someone to be a hair stylist, but only 900 hours of training for someone to be a cop who may or may not shoot or kill someone? Then there's the "defund the police" folks, who (I'm sorry) I can't think of any other motive other than they want to be criminals without consequences. Only vegans or vegatarians don't want meat to be eaten. Only criminals want no police officers. I'm generally in favor of legalizing same-sex marriage. Same here. I'll concede that I believe gay sex is a sin, as outlined in the Bible, but being gay (tempted by same sex) isn't sin IMO. (I mean, if temptation were sin, even Jesus would have sinned based on his temptation(s)) ...but its strange to me that people can't marry people. Like its still an opposites only thing. That's just goofy from a legal standpoint. I had a nervous breakdown today. I'm calling a counselor tomorrow. I can't deal with it any more. I'm really sorry about that bro. I wish there was something I could do to help, besides pray for you. I'm not stressed about all this shiz because online is a bunch of tryhards with max level keyboard courage. Probably some teenagers that enjoy turning the internet into their bathroom stall wall. The other element is criminals and chaos agents pretending to be protesters. Hopefully that will get sorted out soon. Bro, its not just you that thinks all this mess is ridiculous. I have hope that the bad actors will be out of the spotlight before too long, and we'll have some new media generated crisis to pull our hair out over. (or in my case, imaginary hair to pull out)
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jun 9, 2020 13:44:14 GMT -6
I had a nervous breakdown today. Understandable. Very sorry to hear about it though. Praying for you.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 9, 2020 21:56:50 GMT -6
, imaginary hair to pull out) Try pulling your beard out. It might give the same cathartic effect. Mine has never got quite long enough to pull out.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 9, 2020 21:59:51 GMT -6
Only criminals want no police officers. Anarchists have some interesting ideas about how we would police communities without explicitly having a police force. Unfortunately, I'm afraid most of these ideas, if put into practice, would result in the application of vigilante justice. I'm sympathetic with serious reform. I think having a minimal police force in some areas would be an improvement. I think that our focus should primarily be on crime prevention. But I can't imagine living in a really bad neighborhood and wanting the police to entirely disappear. That's just asking for trouble.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Jun 10, 2020 10:30:45 GMT -6
I'm sympathetic with serious reform. I think having a minimal police force in some areas would be an improvement. I'm not sure about minimizing police departments. I don't know the data right off hand, but I'm sure the statistics are out there that 1 cop for every X number of people in a city/town, allows for a Y first response time. I think reform is a great idea, and the police need to be able to detain people using tactics that CAN'T be lethal. I *was* watching Cops quite a bit since it came free to Pluto TV. Still watch it, but a little less now. After George Floyd's horrific murder, I cringe at seeing these officers on the show Cops, put a knee on someone's neck. (and they freakin' do it all... the... time...) I can't help but think, "Man, he was on that dudes neck for 4 minutes straight. Add another 5 minutes, that person would be a corpse." How does pepper spray make someone compliant? I mean, I haven't experienced that myself. Just trying to imagine this, but if I was pinned by people and struggling to get away, I'd think being blinded and my face burning, I'd struggle even more. Rubber bullets? I've been seeing news articles about people losing their eyes and losing their balls from getting shot by those. There's gotta be a better way.
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Post by barabbas on Jun 10, 2020 15:59:07 GMT -6
I fully respect if folks disagree with Trump policies. Even if they're Orange Man Bad deranged.... but to insinuate that anyone else who doesn't hate Trump, defaults to being a racist authoritarian fascist, crosses the line for me. This. This is what is bringing me to a nervous breakdown. Aside from my day job (maintenance), my two main vocations or career paths or what have you are music (especially the local/DIY scene) and philosophy. Both are broadly liberal, which is fine with me. Both have a loud minority of hateful left-wing people who will despise me and disown if they find out that I'm "conservative." I've pretty much given up on making it in the local scene because of these people. They're posting stuff like "unfriend me if you don't support the looting," "if you like punk and metal but don't support the looting you're a poser," cheering when cops are killed, etc. Politics for these people is an excuse to vent their sick revenge fantasies about getting even with the people who bullied them in high school. Similar stuff happening in academia, minus some of the posturing of the music crowd. I get that the anarchist/peace punk/social outcast crowd has always been extreme, but now the normie liberals are going along with it. I'm simultaneously ready to throw it all away and paranoid about people snitching on me on social media. I'm afraid that the friends...well, close acquaintances that I've made will abandon me, and I'll be stuck with my family and no one else. I had a nervous breakdown today. I'm calling a counselor tomorrow. I can't deal with it any more. Keep in mind--I have many beliefs that are liberal. I'm in favor of serious police reform--can't be pro-cop after watching 50 videos of police brutality. I'm in favor of lots of welfare programs (a social "safety net"). I'm almost a pacifist. I'm extremely worried about climate change. I don't think President Trump has been at all a good president. I'm generally in favor of legalizing same-sex marriage. In some contexts, I would be considered "too liberal." But none of this is good enough for the sociopathic woke revenge-seekers. Sorry for the rant. Difficult day for me. I have been praying for you.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 10, 2020 20:39:02 GMT -6
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Jun 11, 2020 15:57:15 GMT -6
Ugh. I was doing guttering work today and fell off the 2nd to top step on the ladder. The ladder broke. Some bricks I landed on broke, I think. (or they were already broken)
I'm fine, except for this damn scrape on my left butt cheek that stings a lot. Soaking in an Epson Salts bath right now and it's feeling better.
My wife was right there and said I landed square on my back. She's having a hard time calming herself down. How I'm feeling? Grateful it wasn't worse. I'm a little annoyed too, honestly. I was almost finished and now I gotta buy a new ladder to maybe get it done next week. (if my wife will let me)
LOL
Prayers regarding no physical things rearing their head later from this, would be appreciated. I'm kind of thinking though, maybe the fall didn't hurt much because I'm a bit condensed from going to the gym.
XD
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jun 11, 2020 18:06:40 GMT -6
Glad it's not worse Thomas! With things like this, it is normal to be pretty "okay" at first and then get a lot of pains later, but I'll be praying for you!
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Post by Borndead on Jun 12, 2020 15:47:40 GMT -6
Oh man, falling on the back is no joke, thank God you´re a buff dude.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 22, 2020 19:41:07 GMT -6
My dad needs a job. I need a car. I also bit into a bad squash and went down the rabbit hole of Google Search Medical School.
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Post by avjr on Jun 26, 2020 10:00:33 GMT -6
Pray for AudioFeed’s fundraiser to have enough money to make the festival happen. Safety too.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 26, 2020 23:24:36 GMT -6
Pray for AudioFeed’s fundraiser to have enough money to make the festival happen. Safety too. Yes. I'm of two minds about the festival. I really want it to happen, but at the same time I want the event planners to do what is best and safest for everyone.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 27, 2020 19:51:14 GMT -6
Update on Audiofeed: I looked at the Illinois plan for reopening (for unrelated reasons). It looks like large events are off the table until a vaccine or effective treatment is available. I doubt Audiofeed will happen unless the government calls an audible. I would still be plenty happy to donate to the bands.
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Post by avjr on Jun 27, 2020 21:17:48 GMT -6
Update on Audiofeed: I looked at the Illinois plan for reopening (for unrelated reasons). It looks like large events are off the table until a vaccine or effective treatment is available. I doubt Audiofeed will happen unless the government calls an audible. I would still be plenty happy to donate to the bands. Interesting. I know Illinois is a blue state like California, so things just got dicey.
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Post by avjr on Jul 4, 2020 16:17:42 GMT -6
Pray for California. Singing in churches are banned.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jul 5, 2020 19:55:41 GMT -6
Pray that I will be less judgmental and bitter.
Also, my hours at work got cut, so pray that I will be able to financially survive until my TA job kicks back in.
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Post by avjr on Jul 5, 2020 21:14:36 GMT -6
Pray that I will be less judgmental and bitter. Also, my hours at work got cut, so pray that I will be able to financially survive until my TA job kicks back in. Just prayed.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jul 16, 2020 11:20:41 GMT -6
My mother is experiencing health problems atm. Please pray for her.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jul 23, 2020 12:04:43 GMT -6
Pray for comfort and guidance for me. Thanks.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jul 27, 2020 22:31:42 GMT -6
Having sleep problems again.
Also, my family is not doing well at the moment. Lots of issues.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Jul 28, 2020 9:36:38 GMT -6
Having sleep problems again. Also, my family is not doing well at the moment. Lots of issues. Sorry to hear it man. Gonna get my prayer in for this during my break at work in about an hour+
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Post by anfauglith on Aug 16, 2020 10:49:06 GMT -6
So... Now I am waiting to be received into my new old church. Meanwhile I am troubled by doubts concerning faith matters (which makes me ashamed because some part of me seems to think that you can't be a church member when you can't get rid of doubts wether God actually exists. And than there are alwys those "helpful" people starting with this holy spirit thing when I tell them that my way of dealing with doubts is in parts to reason about matters of faith. No, of course that is wrong and coming from the devil when you reason about things that you don't understand, how dare I!). Aleo with doubts about my life in general.
Also I feel terrible alone because I have no real friends (of course adults don't have friends, stupid, they have work and silly hobbys maybe, but hey, who ever needed real friends past the age of 20...). Also my wife never visits church with me, because she does not really care about religion and sometimes denies things like the concept of guilt, which both discourages me quite a bit.
Did I mention that summer in Germany sucks? I used to enjoy the season when I was young, but over times it became more and more disgusting for me.
All in all I think I am in a state of minor depression. Prayer might help. Thank you, if you pray for me!
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