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Post by Thomas Eversole on Apr 14, 2017 15:26:07 GMT -6
I'm grateful that as of today, one of my post-cancer problems that has been bothering me for almost a year has been effectively solved. I haven't really told anyone on the forum this... probably an embarrassment thing, but obviously - now that its solved, I feel better about sharing it. Its not a strong enough issue to be carted to the SoA so I'll just say it here. If you don't want to be potentially grossed out by the TMFI, then don't read the spoiler. That lower anterior resection I had last April (removed part of my large intestine with the cancer) caused pee problems of course, which I did mention here (couldn't urinate for a month and a half - had to have a foley catheter) but... it also caused other doodle problems. You get where I'm going with this. Probably scar tissue, cut nerves, who-knows-what-else rendered me physically impotent. This bothered me way more than it should have, but I basically spent at least some part of EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. wallowing in the fact that "I'm no longer a man".
Yeah sure, there's ways to have sex with my wife without a chubby, but it wasn't the same. She was more than understanding about it than I was, probably because she knew this was a medical issue, not a "I did something wrong" or "I don't want to be with you" issue.
Anyway... Viagra. Cialis. Stendra. a ridiculously expensive dick pump. All did NOTHING, which over the course of many months only added to the frustration and the "I'm not even a man anymore" complex I was having.
Long story short, its really REALLY not fun shoving a needle into my junk, but... a few minutes after that, I'm in "regular dude" operation. I do feel like a man again.
Also grateful that I made up for some lost time, and my wife and I will probably be limping tomorrow.
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Post by exo on Apr 14, 2017 21:01:38 GMT -6
not sure what I can say without ruining the spoiler tags. Uh.......congratulations?
😂😂😂😂😂
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Apr 15, 2017 7:43:00 GMT -6
LOL
Now that this is solved, I can actually laugh at the double entendres that my urologist was using.
"I know self injections are hard..." "This is a big issue for a lot of cancer survivors..." "I know you've wanted this fixed for a long time"
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Post by exo on Apr 15, 2017 14:47:18 GMT -6
LOL Now that this is solved, I can actually laugh at the double entendres that my urologist was using. "I know self injections are hard..." "This is a big issue for a lot of cancer survivors..." "I know you've wanted this fixed for a long time" You both got an erection injection?
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Apr 16, 2017 9:50:19 GMT -6
Apparently people who don't even need them do them. *shrugs* LOL
EDIT: I think I may have misread your post. No, he sent me home with the syringes and medication. Just read what people online were saying about them.
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Post by _ on May 4, 2017 21:03:58 GMT -6
I'm thankful for y'all. This could've also gone in the random thoughts thread.
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Post by _ on Jun 3, 2017 15:05:27 GMT -6
Is this thread still a thing? Because coffee. I am grateful for coffee. ... Coffee is freaking amazing.
Oh, also I've been cooking more, which I'm really thankful to God for because that has been something I've wanted to do for a while but I always had an excuse not to and it was getting ridiculous. But in the last three months, I've been cooking more, both 'standard' easy meals at home, which is good financially and for future making-quick-meals-for-my-family-ly, and trying out more exciting/interesting meals. The cooking thread here is cool too.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jun 8, 2017 19:56:34 GMT -6
I'm grateful for this scene. The other day when I was out walking / thinking, I remembered how things - including my musical palette - used to be, and I just hated it. Right now I'm listening to Exalted Saviour - Tetrad. A somewhat dark/gloomy album, with perceptually "dark" artwork, but there's no spiritual hostility in it. And I'm really glad that music like this is available. I don't think people really grasp what it means when we call Christ our "rock" or a "cornerstone"; if the Holy Trinity is not the cornerstone of our focus, there is no foundation for anything. It's all rendered subjective and unstable (bringing to mind that illustration of building a house on sand). A chaotic reality imperfectly perceived SOLELY by a clouded mind and a deluded spirit. Yet there are those who think that filtering things through God's word will limit our understanding. Quite the opposite - it's like sifting through sand while looking for gold; you lose the sand, but you weren't looking for sand, you were looking for gold. Likewise God removes the false from our perception.
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Post by exo on Jun 9, 2017 7:18:13 GMT -6
I am VERY grateful for you guys, your support and prayers.
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Post by _ on Jun 9, 2017 16:58:08 GMT -6
I am VERY grateful for you guys, your support and prayers. Me too!
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Post by Borndead on Oct 16, 2017 20:13:13 GMT -6
I´m thankful for Jesus saving me, for God opening my eyes to truth(used to be catholic), for my amazing family especially for my siblings and for the fact that my parents are still together (although they´ve been through a lot of bad stuff), I´m thankfull for being pretty much healthy, for His patience with me (especially for Him forgiving me day after day), I´m thankful for the opportunities He gave me to share the faith, for Him teaching me although I don´t read the Bible much, for giving me a roof over my head, food on the table, a good job, for introducing me to amazing people. I´m in general thankful for God´s love for us and for giving us security that whatever happens He´ll never drop us out of His hands.
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Post by exo on Oct 22, 2017 7:21:08 GMT -6
I am EXTREMELY thankful for the ease with which I can lay out a "concept demo" of the music bouncing in my head, and even more so for the friends that legitimately WANT to help me see the new concept thru to fruition.
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Post by exo on Oct 28, 2017 17:30:24 GMT -6
Very grateful and thankful, because I Just received some super cool music related news that is HUGE for me on a very personal level......I'd be less vague, but I don't wanna jinx things....lol
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Oct 28, 2017 19:58:22 GMT -6
Jinxing isn't a thing Great to hear anyway!
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Post by _ on Nov 1, 2017 14:15:15 GMT -6
I am grateful for your prayers.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Nov 3, 2017 22:15:50 GMT -6
I'm grateful for all the people who have helped me along in my various information-gathering endeavors. Whether that was sending me obscure demos from the 1990s, or something as simple as answering questions I had about your band. "Unblack Archives", "Unblack Around the World", and so on aren't only "my" efforts, they're the efforts of MULTIPLE people who have put in various amounts of time and effort for the sake of living out God's calling in the context of the scene. And the willingness of so many people to help me achieve this, through my obsessive-compulsive madness, is very very appreciated!
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Post by _ on Nov 21, 2017 15:02:05 GMT -6
Thank you for your prayers.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Nov 22, 2017 12:06:15 GMT -6
I have a small not list as well. I'm grateful that I'm not: - in a wheelchair - in a hospital - in jail - hungry/in need of food Sometimes a "not list" similar to this is all I have regarding gratitude.... what with being in agony the majority of most days. Better than nothing I guess. ...and with "Thanksgiving" tomorrow, I'll be scraping at the bottom trying to muster all the gratitude I can get.
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Post by _ on Nov 22, 2017 13:35:41 GMT -6
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Post by avjr on Nov 23, 2017 11:20:13 GMT -6
Happy Thanksgiving! 🍁🦃🌽🍞🍽
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Nov 23, 2017 15:55:42 GMT -6
Happy Thanksgiving, Aaron! And to anyone else reading this who celebrates Thanksgiving!
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Dec 15, 2017 23:30:51 GMT -6
While today was considerably rough, there's things to be grateful for. I don't have the energy to post the cons in the encouragement thread - so I'll go off topic for a little bit.
What I'm grateful for. My surgery was supposed to take 1.5 to 2 hours. It only took 45 minutes. They found hardly ANY scar tissue.... which leaves me to believe the brunt of these obstructions was from the hernia. ...which is now fixed. I will be grateful to be able to eat more vegetables!
I was bound and determined to make progress. I was leaving the hospital at 5pm... shortly after making 3 laps around the entire general surgery, using the back of a wheelchair as a walker.
My stomach is flatter. It looks normal now.... and not like an alien baby trying to burst out of my bowel from my lower right side. This will help the view I have of my appearance. I plan on hitting the gym hard after I'm healed in 2018. ...which will further help, plus give me my want of the benefits of having fitness goals.
My anesthesiologist thought single toking cannabis was a great idea for pain relief, and I'm happy to have that option instead pounding pills being the only method to reduce pain.
What I need encouragement for - since I want to get rid of as much negativity as I can... I am in TREMENDOUS pain. The referred pain from the gas they used is minor, since the procedure was shorter... but they "sewed" a mesh into the stomach muscles around my hernia. ...and it feels like I would expect.
You guys familiar with that black kid in the wheelchair from Malcolm in the Middle? I talk that when I'm upright and walking. Deep breaths hurt to much, and I use more oxygen when I'm mobile. I'm walking with a staff (cool antelope head on top) because I do not have a cane.
Voiding my bladder is difficult... cause since the first surgery I have to "push" to pee. Everything takes a long time to do...
I'm worried that this brace around my waist that I have to wear for a couple weeks will cause back problems.... because it did last time I wore a belt for hernia pain.
I've had a more-than-usual amount of opiates and cannabis today, While that's helping make pain management easier, I'm foggy and a grump. Like 70% normal Tom, 20% Forgetful Jones, 10% Lewis Black. My anger is getting pinged from this pain.
Prayers would be appreciated. You guys are the best bros, and I'm glad you're here for me. I'm going to put jamming Orationem on the agenda for tomorrow. That's my go-to for being motivated to pray.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Dec 16, 2017 11:16:59 GMT -6
Glad to see you're back and posting Thomas Of course it sucks that you're in pain, but overall it sounds like things are starting to improve from here, and we'll be praying as you continue to recover
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Post by exo on Dec 17, 2017 6:59:37 GMT -6
Glad to see you've had a little bit of "good news" come from this, even if you're in a lot of pain right now. Less scar tissue to cause issues is always a net positive.
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Post by Deepfriar on Dec 17, 2017 21:46:47 GMT -6
Glad to have an update Thomas, and that you are poised for a more normal future. I hate that you are in pain and I pray it passes quickly.
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Post by _ on Jan 28, 2018 16:27:40 GMT -6
I'm grateful for your prayers.
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Post by _ on Jan 29, 2018 18:45:21 GMT -6
I'm thankful I have unlimited access to clean water.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jan 29, 2018 19:32:19 GMT -6
I'm thankful I have unlimited access to clean water. Something we definitely take for granted. And now that you mention it, I'm grateful for it as well.
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Post by _ on Jan 29, 2018 20:15:46 GMT -6
*resists making a pun-based joke regarding "as well" and "well" like a water well*
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Post by _ on Feb 4, 2018 19:19:02 GMT -6
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