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Post by julienbakerfan on Jan 26, 2020 19:29:23 GMT -6
Update: I'll probably be OK other than a sore throat for a week or two. I tend to be a hypochondriac.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jan 30, 2020 19:22:31 GMT -6
Pray for me.
Thanks.
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Post by _ on Feb 7, 2020 14:41:54 GMT -6
prayed for you guys today
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Post by julienbakerfan on Feb 9, 2020 0:03:21 GMT -6
Pray for wisdom in deciding what to do re: grad school. I'm not enjoying it right now. I don't mean that I hate it, it's difficult, etc. I just feel completely neutral to the subject matter. It feels like mashed potatoes with no gravy tastes.
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Post by _ on Feb 10, 2020 20:21:56 GMT -6
it is always night. my mind is always asleep. i think about death.
im not functioning. i cant get comfortable. my shaking hands ache. my mind molests my body. beat me: ill have wounds to show
with eyes closed i see silence overtaken by screams of no escape
i tremble from ghosts who haunt me and who are me, dark despite the light
i am what? am i? breathing through existence is a slow suicide
life weighs me down, wave after wave, i walk away with stones in my coat
my heartbeat mocks me my breathing disappoints me my words anger me
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Feb 11, 2020 12:46:27 GMT -6
Pray for me.
Different stuff this time but I still don't want to talk about it. Let's say I'm "depressed".
Thanks.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Feb 16, 2020 12:35:09 GMT -6
nocturnaliridescence are you doing any better bro? _ how are you doing bro? You are on my prayer list. May God guide you to serenity.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Feb 16, 2020 16:25:25 GMT -6
are you doing any better bro? Thanks for asking. I've finally gotten a bit of work done on Unblack Archives again. I'm also going back to therapy. I stopped going last year (long story) and I thought I'd be okay after all that got resolved, but it's VERY CLEAR, I still need more help. Man, it's hard to even fathom how much depression and anxiety have woven around me, and totally sunk their hooks into my life. Then again, when you ignore a problem for almost a decade.................. I had a very powerful experience the other day, where God embraced me and assured me that, while this current trial would go on a little longer, I would be done with it soon and things would get better. That really helped a lot. So far, things have happened exactly as He told me they would. (Obligatory note: My therapist has confirmed I am not schizophrenic. The aforementioned experience, like most of them, is not a mere hallucination.)
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Post by julienbakerfan on Feb 17, 2020 21:23:32 GMT -6
it's hard to even fathom how much depression and anxiety have woven around me, and totally sunk their hooks into my life. I relate to this a little too much. Pray for me as I am struggling with some health issues that are making it hard for me to get my schoolwork done. In particular, I am having a hard time focusing, and my narcolepsy is very bad. I am going to the doctor for this soon, but in the meantime, I need the energy and focus to get my work done. Half the time when I am reading I'm not even comprehending what I'm reading, and I fall asleep in class constantly. Also, stomach problems. Also, everything else lol.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Feb 18, 2020 13:13:13 GMT -6
Real quick update: doing a lot better today; I think there are a few simple but tough diet changes I need to make.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Feb 21, 2020 12:03:20 GMT -6
TL;DR Please pray for "S", someone I know. They need the light of God.
Not TL;DR Please pray for God's blessing and guidance, regarding... a person. Let's call them "S".
I mentioned this on the Unblack Archives FB page, but: This person is not Christian, but for some reason, I just cannot get this thought out of my head: There is something within this person. This person has so much anger buried inside of them, so much bitterness, ... yet I always see this tiny bit of hope and light, that needs to be brought to the surface.
You know I don't like to talk about my life. But, let's just say, my options here are very limited. I, myself, clearly lack the power to do anything meaningful to help this person find peace. Only God can help, at this point.
So, I ask for you to join me in prayer in this matter. I am wholly convinced there is a sibling in Christ, buried within the darkness of this person's heart.
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Post by exo on Feb 25, 2020 20:29:46 GMT -6
Have any of you ever lost a friend were you DIDNT understand JUST how much they meant to you and what they’d really imparted into “you”?
I just did.
Wally “John” Davis was the first out and out “gay” dude I ever worked with. I was raised “Baptist” in the ‘80’s, so stuff was “weird” for a bit......but eventually I came to value John like few other co-workers, despite his insubordination when I was “in authority”. I eventually changed stores, so it wasn’t a problem for “me”, although it did end up eventually costing him his job a few years down the road with different store management in place.
I knew where he went after that, and made it a point to stop byI and say “hi” every few months or so, despite the fact that he was working for a direct competitor....I ended up respecting John like few otherpeople I have EVER encountered in life, because he taught me that “different” was just “different”, and not necessarily something to be “scaredl of......dude taught me life lessons that I am just only NOW fully comprehending....
John got “sick” a couple year ago. Prostate cancer. Fought it off twice but it made yet anothe recurrence 6 odd months ago. NOBODY was letting on how bad stuff was this last time. John and Trice (partners for THIRTY THREE YEARS.......) made it a point to stop into MY store and say “hey” a free weeks back.......but I didn’t UNDERSTAND that it was John saying “goodbye” at the time.
John passed a couple days ago, I just found out today..,..and I’m more than a little fucked up it about all. Lots of “Ugly Crying”, and huge hugs from my younger kids that just know “Dad hurts right now”....but I take solace in the idea that whatever *I* may have perceived/been taught was “”sin” over the years......John loved Jesus with all of his heart. I’ve ZERO doubt I’ll see him again one day......
But that stil doesn’t make “loss” easy to deal with. Id very much love some prayer cover right now while I try to oroces a whole lot of “feelings”. This has hit me way, WAY harder than I was ready for.....
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Feb 25, 2020 21:21:34 GMT -6
I am really, really sorry to hear that exo. Losing a friend is so, so difficult.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Feb 25, 2020 23:02:27 GMT -6
Pray for me, as I will be going to therapy(ish) tomorrow for various mental issues that have plagued me for 10+ years. Pray that I would be able to list out all my concerns and get them adequately addressed. One of the issues I'm dealing with at the moment is a fear of death and being dead (I know I should be certain of an afterlife, but I'm not). Pray for immediate relief for that as well.
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Post by exo on Feb 26, 2020 16:46:43 GMT -6
I know we’ve only got a “from afar” relationship with the CMR....but I’m from there, it was “home” for years, and I still follow a lot of guys from there on FB. Don’t know exactly how much the band names “Troglodyte Dawn”, “Tykuss”, or “Ultimatum” mean to most folks here.....but “back in the day” at CMR, they were DEFINITELY a “thing”, and I’m FB friends with a few of this guys still.
They just lost a friend and brother a few days ago by the name of Justin Frear, who played guitar in various formations of all 3 of those bands at different times, and we’ve got a lot of Christian Metal Brothers that aren’t into the “extreme” stuff we all love so much that are HURTING right now, and need prayers.
Personally, between finding out about my friend John last night, and Justin today, coupled with a lore of personal life BS.....I’m beginning to think I’m going to associates “February” and “snow” with the concept of “loss” for a long time.......
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Post by Borndead on Feb 27, 2020 13:40:44 GMT -6
Please pray for my health & even more importantly please pray for my friend Justin. He finally accepted God, so please pray for guidance. Also got all of you on my prayer list.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Mar 2, 2020 20:46:23 GMT -6
Please remember to pray about the coronavirus--that it would not spread, that lives would be saved, that doctors and health officials would make wise decisions. REMEMBER: 1) Wash your hands 2) Avoid large crowds 3) Eat healthy and get sleep 4) SLOWLY stock up on a two weeks supply of food and water 5) Don't give handshakes. 6) Don't touch your face.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Mar 5, 2020 22:00:36 GMT -6
Also, pray for my mental health, as I had a pretty bad panic attack today relating to something at work/school. I do not handle conflict/making mistakes well.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Mar 8, 2020 13:11:27 GMT -6
Please remember to pray about the coronavirus--that it would not spread, that lives would be saved, that doctors and health officials would make wise decisions. REMEMBER: 1) Wash your hands 2) Avoid large crowds 3) Eat healthy and get sleep 4) SLOWLY stock up on a two weeks supply of food and water 5) Don't give handshakes. 6) Don't touch your face. Not trying to derail the prayer thread, or minimize the risks with this... but IMO, the "coronavirus" coverage in the news, is very similar to the "vaping" coverage. I like the perspective the Surgeon General gave 3 days ago. In the US, 18,000 people have died from the flu, just this year. In the US, 11 people have died from Coronavirus, this year. Yes to all 6 points julienbakerfan made, absolutely.... but for FLU and CORONA. It irks me that the news is Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona, Corona and very few outlets are discussing PEOPLE ARE DYING FROM THE FLU. (the vaping comparison, In the US, 480,000 people on average, die every year from causes related to tobacco use (smoking, chewing, etc.) Less than 70 people ever, in the US, have died from vaping. yet the news was vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, and they don't even mention tobacco killing hundreds of thousands of people yearly)
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Mar 8, 2020 21:21:25 GMT -6
yet the news was vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, vaping, and they don't even mention tobacco killing hundreds of thousands of people yearly The tobacco industry is too lucrative. Imagine how many JOBS would be lost if people actually rose up against tobacco companies! How much (insert BS about helping the economy) would go away! Our teachers The honest media need to make sure nothing too crazy happens!
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Post by julienbakerfan on Mar 12, 2020 14:45:07 GMT -6
It has begun. My university just cancelled classes for the rest of the week and is switching to all online classes.
Also, there's a strong probability my dad will lose his job. He is an older fellow. Pray that he will find something to replace it.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Mar 13, 2020 12:05:30 GMT -6
I was going to go to this sobriety function at a recovery home I used to be a resident at and work at. ...but with its attendance usually in the 100 headcount range, it was canceled due to "corona". My wife and I are considering holding off on another attempt to have a baby.... what with her being on the front lines (charge nurse in an ICU) and the studies regarding COVID-19 and pre-natal care doesn't exactly exist right now. I personally think the worldwide quarentine is a bit overkill. I'm not prone to conspiracy theory, but I have this strange gut feeling that "the government wants us to stay in our homes" for maybe a different reason, but this crowd-avoidance isn't anywhere near as STUPID as people wiping toilet paper off of all store shelves. The stores local to me have instated a limit on toilet paper purchases. I've strangely started to consider "wiping alternatives". *glares at a jar of sliced pickles* Sorry, I just had to make a joke.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Apr 15, 2020 21:26:42 GMT -6
Pray for my grandmother, who has to go to the hospital tomorrow. I'm worried she'll catch coronavirus while there.
Pray for me as well, as I've been struggling with various ongoing sin issues that this lockdown has not helped.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Apr 22, 2020 19:04:30 GMT -6
Update on my grandmother: a COVID test came back positive for antibodies; the full results won't be back until tomorrow (I'm not 100% sure how the tests work. I think you get tested for antibodies then for the virus). Please pray for her as she is in her 80s and was already in the hospital for an unrelated issue. Please also pray for my mom, aunt, and sister who are taking care of her--they are already stressed out and this is just one more burden. I can't do anything because I no longer live in the same place.
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Post by julienbakerfan on May 9, 2020 13:18:14 GMT -6
Continue to pray for me, as I'm struggling with anger issues/frustration, as well as other things. Sometimes it feels like I can never make the changes in life that I need to.
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Post by Borndead on May 21, 2020 17:21:25 GMT -6
Would appreciate prayers for my mothers & Filip(very good friend of mine) health & for my bandmate Justin, he just lost his best friend & is also new to The Faith. May God bless and protect all of you and your loved ones.
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Post by Bartimaeus on May 25, 2020 9:07:38 GMT -6
Pray for our adoption. The virus has wreaked havoc on the entire process. Our adopting country (in Asia) is basically completely shut down. It seems the USCIS is going bankrupt and any questions related to immigration are on hold for the foreseeable future. We're going on 2 years of waiting +/-. Prayers for patience and trust in God's purpose for this situation would be greatly appreciated.
Praying you all are well. 3 John 2
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Post by avjr on May 27, 2020 10:06:05 GMT -6
I’m not a fan of Hawk Nelson, but pray for their singer, Jonathan Steingard. He doesn’t believe in God anymore.
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Post by avjr on May 30, 2020 21:35:52 GMT -6
I am praying for my county, Los Angeles. Riots from 1992 are back, the mayor and governor aren’t making good decisions, and everyone are affected by it.
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Post by julienbakerfan on Jun 7, 2020 15:33:37 GMT -6
Pray for my current mental state, which is...not good. Maybe I need to stay off social media or something.
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