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Post by barabbas on Feb 19, 2021 11:53:30 GMT -6
I'm having surgery tomorrow. It's pretty minor, but I'm still kinda freaked about it, like I get freaked out about... anything medical I guess. Prayers. Thanks. Prayed for you. How'd it go?
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Feb 19, 2021 12:43:50 GMT -6
I'm doing well. The surgery went fine. I'm in some pain. I'm a little dizzy and pretty tired yet from the anesthesia, but that should go away in the next few days. Overall I have to take it easy for a few days. I might not be active on here. I might not have a release from Annihilated Pentagram on Monday for this week. But I mean, "taking it easy" is about all I've been doing the past couple months, lol. It's not a huge transition for me.
I had a septoplasty which my browser doesn't recognize as a word for some reason. Anyway, I see my doctor again in early March to have the stuff taken back out of my nose. Just have to take it easy until then.
Thank you for the prayers guys.
By the way, coming out of anesthesia I was very groggy and probably couldn't have had more than a very simple conversation, but I did manage to tell the nurse, coherently, that I'm a devout, born-again Christian. This is also an answer to prayers that I've had. I was concerned that if my mental ability was ever impaired for some reason, I'd forget my theological knowledge that I've learned from God. This goes to show that God answered my prayers and will allow me to witness, even in times of mental cloudiness.
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Post by _ on Feb 22, 2021 6:27:12 GMT -6
I feel far from God.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Feb 22, 2021 9:26:35 GMT -6
God's not the one who moved further away. This can be changed at anytime.
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Post by _ on Feb 22, 2021 10:12:28 GMT -6
God's not the one who moved further away. This can be changed at anytime. (I had a feeling you might comment something like this.) Thank you.
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Post by barabbas on Feb 24, 2021 11:28:45 GMT -6
God's not the one who moved further away. This can be changed at anytime. Respectfully, I disagree with both of these as general statements. They may not be true in this case. Regarding the first, some Christians (e.g., John of the Cross) have affirmed that God may withhold experiences of his presence so that Christians can grow beyond loving God merely for the joy that God gives and toward loving God for his own sake. These periods have been called the dark night of the soul or spiritual dryness. It doesn't mean that God is no longer omnipresent; God may prevent us from sensing his presence during these times. Is that an instance of "God moved further away"? Could be, I think. Is that what's happening here? I don't know. (Am I severely annoyed when people interview themselves? Yes, yes I am.) Regarding the second, there could be many reasons why we may feel distant from God. Many forms of mental illness can lead to a person feeling distant from God (e.g., depression, trauma, etc.). Some of those are outside of our direct control, meaning we can't simply choose to move closer to God. In all of these cases, God is still omnipresent. But felt closeness to God is impacted by many factors, not all of which are up to us.
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Feb 28, 2021 10:58:39 GMT -6
Regarding the second, there could be many reasons why we may feel distant from God. Many forms of mental illness can lead to a person feeling distant from God (e.g., depression, trauma, etc.). Some of those are outside of our direct control, meaning we can't simply choose to move closer to God. I see your point regarding changing feelings about God's proximity/closeness, but I believe any "feelings" can still be influenced by putting in the effort to do so, even if a total change inside or outside of depression and trauma isn't possible. Perhaps its the former depressed person in me that can still see insight of outside of our direct control we can't simply choose to move closer to God as being a foothold for "why even try to get closer to God at all?", which is a close cousin to "God's just far away. Deal with it, that's how it is." which is a distant cousin of "God isn't even there, so I should just forget about it." D:
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Post by julienbakerfan on Feb 28, 2021 15:32:39 GMT -6
Dealing with anger issues again. Pray that I would consistently forgive and love others.
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Post by _ on Feb 28, 2021 19:42:33 GMT -6
paralytic distress and unyielding pain edit: i cut myself
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Post by barabbas on Mar 1, 2021 23:50:58 GMT -6
Regarding the second, there could be many reasons why we may feel distant from God. Many forms of mental illness can lead to a person feeling distant from God (e.g., depression, trauma, etc.). Some of those are outside of our direct control, meaning we can't simply choose to move closer to God. I see your point regarding changing feelings about God's proximity/closeness, but I believe any "feelings" can still be influenced by putting in the effort to do so, even if a total change inside or outside of depression and trauma isn't possible. Perhaps its the former depressed person in me that can still see insight of outside of our direct control we can't simply choose to move closer to God as being a foothold for "why even try to get closer to God at all?", which is a close cousin to "God's just far away. Deal with it, that's how it is." which is a distant cousin of "God isn't even there, so I should just forget about it." D: Yeah, thanks. I didn't mean for what I said to imply that we shouldn't put in any effort. Like any relationship, effort is required even (maybe especially) when the feelings aren't there.
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Post by barabbas on Mar 1, 2021 23:53:32 GMT -6
paralytic distress and unyielding pain edit: i cut myself Still praying for you, bro. I know it's difficult. I know I'm not just speaking for myself when I say that we care about you and your well being.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Mar 3, 2021 12:20:29 GMT -6
Dealing with anger issues again. Pray that I would consistently forgive and love others. Pray the same for me. Thanks. Also for those wondering, I'm basically healed from the surgery. Still need to be careful a bit, but overall I'm back to life as usual!
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Post by _ on Mar 17, 2021 17:24:55 GMT -6
m=u=d m=a=n static/vomit dissocia|sin
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Post by Bartimaeus on Mar 20, 2021 17:21:31 GMT -6
Please pray for our adoption. Traveling soon, which would usually be the most uneventful part of this journey, but in the time of Covid, is ever uncertain.
Please pray for favor with our judge and with the embassy/consulate to expedite passports and visas.
Please pray for quick bonding with our son, both for us and him.
Pray that no matter the circumstances, God would receive glory.
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Post by _ on Mar 21, 2021 15:22:46 GMT -6
function and pain relief and rescue from slipping into hell
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Post by Thomas Eversole on Mar 28, 2021 9:55:20 GMT -6
Please pray for our adoption. Traveling soon, which would usually be the most uneventful part of this journey, but in the time of Covid, is ever uncertain. Please pray for favor with our judge and with the embassy/consulate to expedite passports and visas. Please pray for quick bonding with our son, both for us and him. Pray that no matter the circumstances, God would receive glory. Praying about this brother. Please let us know how it goes!
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Post by Bartimaeus on Mar 28, 2021 23:26:38 GMT -6
Please pray for our adoption. Traveling soon, which would usually be the most uneventful part of this journey, but in the time of Covid, is ever uncertain. Please pray for favor with our judge and with the embassy/consulate to expedite passports and visas. Please pray for quick bonding with our son, both for us and him. Pray that no matter the circumstances, God would receive glory. Praying about this brother. Please let us know how it goes! Thanks! We’ve taken custody of our son, but waiting on some additional documentation. Courts have been closed due to a national holiday, so we hope to have everything in had in 2 days or so. God is good, things have gone well so far. The boy is experiencing some serious separation trauma, but we expected that. We’ll still be in country for a week or so due since he’ll need an exit exam, exit permit and visa. We cannot thank everyone enough for their prayers, none of this happens outside of God’s Providence.
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Post by _ on Mar 31, 2021 21:38:32 GMT -6
behavior change.
it is quite literally life and death.
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Post by _ on Apr 3, 2021 15:23:51 GMT -6
im dissociating whatever that means
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Post by _ on Apr 16, 2021 9:13:36 GMT -6
Jesus literally do anything for me. why did You curse me to fucking hell on earth. fuck.
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Post by jazzhead on Apr 16, 2021 14:17:16 GMT -6
Jesus literally do anything for me. why did You curse me to fucking hell on earth. fuck. I've wondered the same thing from time to time. I have no answers, but I'm still here. Hang in there brother.
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Post by _ on Apr 19, 2021 9:06:15 GMT -6
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Post by Bartimaeus on Apr 19, 2021 12:09:24 GMT -6
Praying about this brother. Please let us know how it goes! Thanks! We’ve taken custody of our son, but waiting on some additional documentation. Courts have been closed due to a national holiday, so we hope to have everything in had in 2 days or so. God is good, things have gone well so far. The boy is experiencing some serious separation trauma, but we expected that. We’ll still be in country for a week or so due since he’ll need an exit exam, exit permit and visa. We cannot thank everyone enough for their prayers, none of this happens outside of God’s Providence. Back home. This process has been exhausting and incredibly difficult emotionally. Thank you for your prayers! Please pray for quick re-acclimation. Theology has become very practical for us because we’ve been at the end of ourselves multiple times and had to fall on God’s grace to persevere.
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Post by Bartimaeus on Apr 20, 2021 8:14:47 GMT -6
Jesus literally do anything for me. why did You curse me to fucking hell on earth. fuck. I've wondered the same thing from time to time. I have no answers, but I'm still here. Hang in there brother. Sometimes all I have been able to muster is a whispered “Come quickly, Lord Jesus.”
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Post by spiritussancti on Apr 29, 2021 1:03:54 GMT -6
Jesus literally do anything for me. why did You curse me to fucking hell on earth. fuck. Praying for you. You are not alone
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Post by _ on Apr 29, 2021 6:41:15 GMT -6
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Post by julienbakerfan on May 22, 2021 9:38:42 GMT -6
Pray for my dad, who has been in the hospital and in and out of the ICU for almost a week now.
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Post by nocturnaliridescence on Jul 21, 2021 19:45:58 GMT -6
Can you guys pray for my friend? I don't have much info, but apparently he's "going through a lot mentally" and needs a lot of comfort.
If he knew I was writing this, he'd probably want me to call him "P".
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Post by _ on Jul 30, 2021 10:42:07 GMT -6
please pray for my health and function
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Post by Borndead on Aug 25, 2021 15:50:34 GMT -6
Long time no see, and egoistic as I am I'm here only to ask for prayers. I've been on a downward spiral for what feels to be an eternity. I'm on the verge of burnout, physically, mentally and spiritually on an all time low. I feel its an refining period(I hope so) and I do belive God will act when the time is right. But I'm hurting, I feel alone and I'm just plain fucking sad, disappointed, joyless, sinning like crazy just a mess.
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